I grew up in Poland. My grandparents were World War II survivors and my parents survived the communist occupation after the war.
When I was small, life was governed by one word only - SURVIVAL.
We didn’t talk about emotions. So, words like 'self-care' or 'self-love' were alien to us. I didn’t even know words like that existed when I was a child.
When I grew up I made my own life about survival, too.
Because all I knew was survival and scarcity. But I felt deep inside there was more...
For years I suffered with severe anxiety and I created (totally unintentionally) plenty of emotional drama, health drama, relationship drama, financial drama … all kinds of drama you can think of.
This cycle of drama and trauma continued for a long time until I was completely burnt out and physically sick.
I was desperate. I knew I couldn't go on like that much longer. Managing all the intense emotions that were ruining my life and my relationships was beyond me.
I had to do something. It was a matter of life or death. Literally.
I spent years in the classrooms and lecture halls. I attended courses, workshops and trainings. I worked hard with the amazing therapists and coaches I met on my way. But yet something was still missing...
Then, one day during a session with my breathwork coach as I was laying on my mat doing connected breathing exercises, she reached down, gently placed her hand on my shoulder and whispered in my ear…